idek why i’m doing this i feel so stupid. i’m just sodumb. all of my friends and family are so talented and successful at at least something and here i am a dumb loser. i have literally not one redeeming quality. nobody says it but i can tell everybody secretly hates me. i feel like people pretend to be my friend just out of pity. i hate myself so much i wish i could end all of this a non painful way. if there is a god what was the point of him putting me on this earth just to suffer like this. why create any of us at all.