a few months ago i got drunk with my girlfriend.we were making out and started to get physical. she asked me how drunk i was, i was a bit drunk, not stinking, but she was a drunker than i was, so i said i was fairly drunk, which i guess i was but it felt like a lie. i lied so she would have sex with me. i feel disgusting, like ive deceived her, im sure it wouldnt have mattered anyway if i had been completely honest but i dont know i just feel like a scumbag. i would never have said something like that if she was drunk and i was stone sober, but that still doesnt make it right. it was wrong and i was wrong and i dont know what to do. this makes me want to kill my self. i guess i can say it was a drunken mistake, but that makes me feel like i am not taking full accountablility. i just dont want to feel like what i did was rape my girlfriend.