it’s 4am and i don’t know what to do with myself. i have medical leave from school (that’s a whole different story) so i don’t have school tomorrow, but i have a doctor appointment and stuff. for the past hour, i’ve been staring at the ceiling and listening to music. i’m just so- i don’t know. sad? not really. just tired. i’m surrounded my amazing friends and family and everyone supports me so much and i’m so grateful but- somethings missing. i don’t know what and it’s driving me insane. i just feel so alone, no matter how dumb and cheesy that sounds.