idk anymore

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im so sad and i’m always thinking about how it would be if i wasn’t here but i know if i did that it wouldn’t cause me peace it would cause ppl who love me to hurt and i can never show my emotions cuz i bottle them up and everyone thinks i’m tough but really i just want to be able to tell people how i really feel but now i dont feel anything but sadness and i have to express my sadness with anger it makes me say horrible things that i wish i didn’t and i know i hurt my family when i say it but i have no other way of expressing how i feel and it makes me so mad and i can’t say i’m sorry cause it makes me look week and i don’t want to be week but i don’t want to be rude and now all my family sees me as is rude and disrespectful and i don’t know what to do about it