i am an introvert and it's stopping me from having a happy life, today i was supposed to go to a birthday party but i didn't because none of my close friends were invited and now i regret it. I can't go anywhere alone because i would just feel uncomfortable or i would think people are staring at me because i'm disgusting. When i was much younger i was given a chance to go to a ballet school but i declined the offer because "i wouldn't have any friends there". I'm regretting everything because i could have so many friends and so many beautiful memories but i just can't go. I feel miserable all the time and i just want to be confident and extroverted and have fun and not worry about anything. I really don't want to live like this.