He makes me feel weak when I look at his eyes. I hate him so much because I cant get him out of my head it annoys me, but i don't want him to leave me. I hate when he smiles at other people and is happy around them without me... Am I a bad person for that? But I want him all to my self I want to lock up that smile it hurts. He told me he likes me but i don't know what to say. I like him but I hate him because he's better than me. I hate valentines day, so many people gather around him like he's theirs. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. He kissed me not to long ago and I haven't talked to him in about 2 day. Will he hate me? We're not together because if I fear that if i went out with him everything would change and I might not be able to act like his best friend anymore... But then again I Don't WANT ANYONE STEALING HIM FROM ME I just wanted to type my thoughts away because they're bothering me and sending it out is like leave it it for people to see the things I think about. I dont really care if anyone reads it, I guess I just wrote it for the sake of writing I dont know. These are things I have a hard time saying to peoples faces even though I tend to bring up a brave/selfless face.