I don't want to live anymore but I am not sure i want to dio ether. Even tho i have great friends and family I constantly feel lonely. Besides that i feel empty. I know its stupid because there are people with real problems and struggles and i live a normal life without much bad happening but i cant help it. I just can't talk to anybody about it because i'm afraid they wouldn't understand or they would start pitying me. I'm also scared to tell my parents because my sister had mental health problems few years ago and it was really hard for them so i dont want them to go trough that again. At first i tought this was a faze but it has been going on for so long that i'm not so sure anymore. I jast can't go on like this, the only thing i want is to be happy but idk how to do that. Nothing i do and nothing good that happenes makes me happy. Every day i think about ending it but i never actualy bring myself to do it. I guess i don't really want to die i just don't see another way out. I am scared that i'm going to feel like this for the rest of my life and i can't do it. I'm just tired.