I didn't really think of it it starts 2 years ago. I'm a 16 years old girl who did never fall in love befor not because I don't want to it's cuz I had priorities at the time . So there's this girl at school since the first day I exchange to the new school I had an interest in her . She's just perfect she's smart pretty independent she know how to talk and behave she's completely the opposite of me . At first i didn't pay this attention but my interest in her start to get bigger and bigger. I didn't realize that I lost focus in school because I only think about her . Actually we didn't talk before may be just once and it was me asking her for math problem and I'm pretty sure she hate me cuz last year i was trying to compete with her in studies so she could at least notice me and she did but not the way i wanted. I know she doesn't like me just looking at the way she look at me. But I'm not that hurt I know my chance is zero with her first of all i really don't know if it's love or just attraction I never experienced something like that befor but the problem is the first person I'm attracted to is a girl . I'm not homophobic but my parents really stict they for real would have killed me if they knew . And second she's religious and I'm sure she isn't lesbian .what I want to know is that I don't talk to her I don't know anything about her I don't know if I'm lesbian either but why I'm still thinking of her Like everyday . I heard that if you want to know you love somebody or not think of them in a romantic way . I did but it seems a lil bit off cuz I'm not attracted to girls it's just her . I started to question my sexual orientation because of her I mean I wasn't really attracted to men and I'm not attracted to women either but the idea of love any of the both gender seem alright I searched up I might be a pansexual . But the thing is I'm not attracted to women SEXUALLY but I do with men however when it comes to FEELING I prefer women so what am I ?