i actually never realized this, i thought the world iam living in is just full of peaceful, happiness and love. I was young at that time when i realized that its not this way i kept thinking about god and how he created everything and how strong he is for being able to see how horrible, terrible and terrifying this world is. sometimes i just keep asking my self why did he create such a horrible world with all of this pain. I actually feel so ashamed to be one of those creature that were created on earth and it hurts to be part of it. Finally i realized how dead people are lucky for leaving this world and not being a part of it and i realized how much i hate humans, including me.