Its funny that even on a private website im ignored 😂 I guess you could say that im used to it by know. I mean its alright, its not like I care or anything😔🖤I feel like im 10 or something lol. Im also really high and in a bad place mentally. I wish I could be loved you know. Ive been in foster care for like 16 years. I have been to juvie, mental hospitals, and many many different homes. I just want to be loved y'know, at some point I just want a mom and a dad. I miss my family so y'know it sucks. I dont really understand myself, I want to be in the army and thats only because I want to be yelled at and such during my training. I think ill become strong. I mean I really am strong physically but not emotionally. I mean ive been told that I am but I dont believe it. I just want to be strong one day. Today a guy was talking and he said he thought I was gay... He said that I make him feel less of a man because I guess im masculine. I was pisssssed. I wanna be girl.. I mean in my opinion im just fit because I have like a lot of boxing and such. So i have a toned body. But like.. I dont know. Im just rambling now. But I feel so alone all the time, i cry all the time now. And i keep remember all my attackers and rapers and my mother and such. It sucks.