well, hi •~•..... 3 years ago, I was just a mere college student with a fiancee, his name is Kian, it's been all good, not until I realize something was going on like the way my friends and sister approach me it all changed like they always kinda pity and be kind me. And after having that curiosity I feel like I want to know what I don't know, I tried my best to dig things up, I thought it's gonna give me a satisfying feeling. Well, things didn't work as I thought I would. I still remember the feeling of being betrayed 3 years ago, yes something is going on with my sister and fiancee and that my friends know what's going on. The scar of that time is still carved here in my heart, I never forgive and forget that time. So I became a waste, yes I didn't confront them, just go waste without any reasons like that time my whole world is him, then it just goes crash. Then he has an older brother named Luke. He was the one who always comforts me that time. He would cheer me up, every time I go to a party by myself he would go with me as he said that there are many pervs.Then there is this one party, as usual, he would come with me. But this time we both got completely drink and wasted. And just found myself lying in a bed, with him. Yes. We did that thing. After that, we promised each other that we will forget what happened that night and act normal. It worked pretty well, I tried my best, to restore my old self, but still don't forget what my sister did. Then the day of my birthday, my mom cooked some of my fav foods but I just can't stop vomiting. The first that came to my mind that time, was that night. Then Luke approaches me naturally asking if I'm okay, then I punched him well in don't know what to do at that time, so he asked what wrong, then he said that we would go to the doctor, then we made up some stupid excuses, of course, we didn't go to our local hospital, we went to a small clinic. And. I'm pregnant. I cried that time. It was happy and sad. Happy because I like imagining having an angel. Sad because reality check, it's chaos. When we both walked out of the room, I asked him to choose. Rather I will stay in the country and I will do abortion, clarification I don't want abortion I just want to know if he is serious with the baby, or I and the baby will live in another country. He chooses me and the baby to live in another country. After days of not talking to him, I decided to find myself in another country. I went to Spain without him knowing and ye he tried to stop me that time that he will do anything even it means him dying. That time I just don't know how to solve things. I BECAME A COWARD and lived by myself and ofc with our baby her name is Charlotte. I raised her by myself. Up until now, my parents don't know I have Charlotte. While my parents just think I study and pay for my school, I take part-time jobs in school. Well, I have a kinda big allowance and I use all of that to buy all the things Charlotte needs. Well, she is breastfeeding so I saved up money. 4 hours from now. All of my family will arrive and visit me here and they are with the two brothers. Like and Kian. I don't know what to do. Like ever since I leave our country, never contacted Luke. I don't know what to say to them 😭 PLEASE HELP ME 😭😭