I'm a mess

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I want to escape my life, I'm really only a kid but I'm not comfortable in my own home and I don't really feel emotions anymore, I used to be able to cry and let my emotions out and show others how I felt and feel happier, but, I can't do it anymore, I see no escape in a downward spiral and now every little thing is making me paranoid, I mean my report cards came through just the other day and I know my parents won't be happy with me, they expected me to have a perfect grade but I slipped up and lost the motivation to fix my mistakes, I don't know what's going to happen to me, but I am not happy with what I know may come in the future. I mean I already tried coming out to my parents to try to express myself and be respected and now I'm not even close to supported by him and I don't really want to be a part of the life I am in, I feel like a stand-out and yet I stand alone, I feel as if I can't really live my own life anymore because of all the restrictions upon my own life and I don't want to make anyone else sad like me but I don't know what to do with my life anymore, I don't feel loved, and as soon as I may have the opportunity to be, my chances get crushed down by the overwhelming stress and restrictions my parents put upon me.