I don’t know why I’m even sharing this but what the hell I need to get it of my chest. So I moved to America about a year ago as a gay guy very exited to be gay in the biggest gay country in the world, we’ll more then where I came from; South Africa. Anyways. I fell I love with a girl, ironic right! Turns out she is married but that didn’t stop her from f#@king me. To make it worse she was my boss and I live in the appartement attached to her house. So it makes me a mistress I guess, because we have been together for 10 months. On top of that I have to eat with her and her husband, and kids every night. I would like to say I’m a good person but I suck and I’m an asshole! I tried ending it but I’m stuck in America with no way home to South Africa because of dumb F Corona! Why would someone do this to another human being? Am I just a sex toy to her? She says she loves me but says she’ll never leave her husband no matter what. Fucked up! Someone just tell me this isn’t a hellhole? And I’m not the only one. Also am I gay still or straight or bisexual? My life is a mess!

I don’t know why I’m even sharing this but what the hell I need to get it of my chest. So I moved to America about a year ago as a gay guy very exited to be gay in the biggest gay country in the world, we’ll more then where I came from; South Africa. Anyways. I fell I love with a girl, ironic right! Turns out she is married but that didn’t stop her from f#@king me. To make it worse she was my boss and I live in the appartement attached to her house. So it makes me a mistress I guess, because we have been together for 10 months. On top of that I have to eat with her and her husband, and kids every night. I would like to say I’m a good person but I suck and I’m an asshole! I tried ending it but I’m stuck in America with no way home to South Africa because of dumb F Corona! Why would someone do this to another human being? Am I just a sex toy to her? She says she loves me but says she’ll never leave her husband no matter what. Fucked up! Someone just tell me this isn’t a hellhole? And I’m not the only one. Also am I gay still or straight or bisexual? My life is a mess! 

You're bisexual. The woman could have feelings for you, but she doesn't want to have a life with you, that much is clear. Just because you can't move back to s.africa, doesn't mean you can't move to another place in the us. The us is huge. Hood luck.

You're bisexual. The woman could have feelings for you, but she doesn't want to have a life with you, that much is clear.Just because you can't move back to s.africa, doesn't mean you can't move to another place in the us. The us is huge. Hood luck. 