I don’t know why I’m even sharing this but what the hell I need to get it of my chest. So I moved to America about a year ago as a gay guy very exited to be gay in the biggest gay country in the world, we’ll more then where I came from; South Africa. Anyways. I fell I love with a girl, ironic right! Turns out she is married but that didn’t stop her from f#@king me. To make it worse she was my boss and I live in the appartement attached to her house. So it makes me a mistress I guess, because we have been together for 10 months. On top of that I have to eat with her and her husband, and kids every night. I would like to say I’m a good person but I suck and I’m an asshole! I tried ending it but I’m stuck in America with no way home to South Africa because of dumb F Corona! Why would someone do this to another human being? Am I just a sex toy to her? She says she loves me but says she’ll never leave her husband no matter what. Fucked up! Someone just tell me this isn’t a hellhole? And I’m not the only one. Also am I gay still or straight or bisexual? My life is a mess!