I raped my ex girlfriend multiple times, I chocked her and hit her without her consent during sex and had so scared of me she was apologizing for making me angry and not me being abusive, I cheated on her and then left her for another woman after who I then emotionally abused. I’m a liar a manipulator and an abuser and I’m afraid of them speaking out. I know hell is waiting for me, but I know for my ex’s they will need to heal a lot more than me