I’m obese and can’t lose weight. I’ve tried everything and keep failing. I simply don’t have the willpower to maintain a healthy eating and exercise regime. I eat to feel good, I eat to reward myself and I eat when things have gone badly. It’s all eating to excess. I have periods of a few days or weeks or even months where I maintain healthy eating and exercise but it never lasts. Exercise is so hard when carrying all this weight. Everything is hard with all this weight. It’s a destructive cycle of failure, weakness and self-hatred. I’ve spent my life desperate to know what it feels like to be fit and healthy but I now know that it won’t happen. A wasted life.