I have a very, very lovely girlfriend. We have known each other for 3-4 years now long distance and have been dating for one. She's incredibly sweet to me, of course we have issues like every couple, but there's someone irl who has been distracting me. It's this guy at my school, and something about him is just so intoxicating. He doesn't know that I like him and I doubt the feelings would be reciprocated, but I feel like shit for feeling this way to begin with. I'm dating someone, I shouldn't be thinking about other people. It's not even in a sexual way like most of that shit is, it's like. I stare at this guy and I wish he would hold me or play with my hair, or just cuddle. Nothing beyond that. But still, it's gross, and I dont know where these feelings are coming from. I've never been this way before. I'm not a cheater, cheating is fucking disgusting and I'd never want to do that to someone. I just dont know what's up with me right now.