I think I'm being stalked and i can't tell my parents. So i don't know how to start but a guy i thought i had a crush on is stalking me. He literally called me everyday and i used to block it but i has been 2 years now and i got a call from unknown no. Today and i have a gut feeling it was him also i can't tell anyone about it because I'll get in trouble for giving out my no. To a guy. It's literally so tiring he used to threaten me with his life to force me in being in a relationship with him but i didn't. I even commited suicide but was stopped by somebody. I have depression and anxiety. I had it for a long time and when i told him to stop as its getting worse he just laughed at me and said that I'm joking about having a depression and i am ruining his lif e . He literally wanted to get married to me i was only 17 yrs at that time. When i refused he asked his cousin to force me and i got a panic attack because she forced me to go to a room with her and locked it. Then again i never knew my bff was siding with them. They even spread roomers about me. Now i don't know what to do as 2 yrs passed I'm still scared of seeing him anywhere. I cut all my contacts with my friends and delete my social media accounts. But I'm still scared. My anxiety is getting worse. Sometimes i just wanted to end my life. I don't even want to study anymore. Besides my parents are forcing me to study but i really can't. I just want everything to stop. It's my fault i never used to give any guy but i just did it this time..... I really am sorry if i ever hurt you but please leave me alone..... I'm so paranoid that even if i get a call from unknown number i get panick attacks and i don't know how to stop...... Well i would be nice if i died..... Lif has lost all its meaning for me. I have to start college soon but i don't know if i could. I literally explained to him that i don't love him but he is still asking for a reason as why i am not being in a relationship with him. I have no idea how he gets my information.... But i can't change this no. I have no reason to tell my parents. I have become such a person if i here somebody calling my name and i don't know them i probably would get a heart attack..... Besides there is nobody to understand.