In starting to realize that I have nothing to look forward to. No goals, no motive, it's like I'm living to die. I have few friends and I think they are getting bored of me. To be honest I would probably get bored of me too. I'm known as the quiet kid at school, but I don't want to be. I have social anxiety where I get nervous trying to talk to someone I don't really know. I try to put on a fake smile to make sure no one knows how I'm feeling, but I end up crying myself to sleep listening to sad music.