i already know how my life is going to end. I already know it. i have a lot of amazing friends and my family is supportive enough, but this burdening feeling of not being good enough and not being what my family and friends need is weighing down on me.

ive planned out the date and everything. how im going to do it. where and what ill leave behind. i just needed a place to say this without causing any disruptions, so im announcing it here.

im so tired of life. my friends tell me that they'll be disappointed in me and i understand that, but i just want someone to tell me that its okay. i want someone to tell me that theyll still love me, even after i take my own life.

i hate it here.

goodbye world. you treated me well for a few years, and then you completely fucked my shit up.

so...fuck you.

and lowkey fuck 2020.