distance relationship

I’m in love with my best friend

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I’ve been in love with my best friend for over 4 years now. I’ve dated 3 other guys, and I could never get myself to get over him. Over the past year I have concluded that I’m in love with him. He means so much to me and I can only see my future with him. However, he doesn’t return the same feelings. I’m going off to college later this year, and he’s a year younger. He will probably be going to a different state for college while I stay in the same state. I want to be with him, and if he wanted to do a long distance relationship I would. I am terrified that when he leaves he’ll find someone else, and leave me heartbroken. I don’t know if I can stay friends with him, and I feel selfish saying that. He says he doesn’t feel that way, even tho we say ily and we are “friends with benefits” and he tells me how I’m the only girl he is very close to. I have never felt so comfortable and safe around anyone like this before. I have never felt this way for anyone, and I hate saying I’m in love because I’m only 18 and I sound ridiculous. I can see my future with him, and I have never been able to with anyone else. I just don’t think I can only be friends with him, but I don’t want to lose him.