So since end of September I have been v mentally unwell on a whole host of medications to try and keep me stabilised. I have been extremely urgently suicidal and also I have wanted to run away which, I know won’t end well but it’s still in me to run away to the seaside. I’m not sure why and I know it won’t make anything better but I just like the sea and the sand and feel at ease there, I have lots of calming meds so I think I could just about do it. Well I have a full grab and go bag (just a largeish handbag so not conspicuous) at the ready with all essentials in. My only prob would be buying the train tickets cause then they will find out where I’m going, the B&B could be cash so that would be ok. I can’t trust anyone to not tell my family, where I’m going so it’s not like I can ask anyone to buy the tickets for me. Either oh I don’t know it don’t really matter anyway cause I’d prob be too scared in the end and bottle it but just wanted to say it out loud. Cause no one knows my idea.