I slept with a guy whom I knew had a girl friend.He cheated on her for 5 years. My intention wasn't to hurt the other girl. We were drunk the day it all started..... I was madly in love with him and I tried my level best to ignore him when I knew I had feelings for him... But the more I pushed the closer he came to me. I was young and madly in love... I'm not a bitch.... Everyone who knows me will say the same. I'm not the kind of person who does wrong things...jm a very sorted person. But I was just madly in love with him. I was madly in love with him since school.... He met his girl in college. We were drunk one day and he just kissed me and then one thing led to another and I lost my virginity to him. He treated me like bullshit the whole 5 years.... He would want me when he needed something. It was completely one sided effort. He would constantly say horrible things to me like you are just a temporary happiness my girl frirnd is my permanent happiness. He left me in the most ruthless situation 3 times. And every time he came back and I gave him a chance thinking he would change and understand he is hurting me and just apologise so that I would move on. Today he did the same thing again. I regret doing that to his girl. I repent it. I never wanted to hurt her.... But she hurt me a lot in other matters and I let her coz I felt guilty. But I genuinely loved him...he spoiled the idea of love for me. I'm so scared and traumatized that I don't even like talking to people I have known. I don't hope you bad.... I just hope you get what you deserve. And Im sorry for doing this to you being a girl. My intention wasn't to hurt you.... I was just madly in love. So madly that I couldn't think. I'm sorry.