Hi, I'm 18, and I hate myself. I've suffered from an eating disorder, and I've been trying to recover, but it's been hard, I attempted to kill myself three times with drugs and my disease by making myself pass out and hopefully, I don't wake up. I hate my identity. I'm half black and Filipino. I hate being black, and I wish I could tear off my skin, and I wish I had straight hair instead of curly hair. I hope no one hates me for saying that, but it's true. At this point, I want to commit suicide. I do not feel like I should be part of this world because I am not the standards.