It’s scary being a teenager. I never thought it would be like this. I mean I never thought of it being a perfect time in my life, but my years have just started (freshman) and im already having trouble with just living. I’ve had trouble with this before, but it just seems like everything is planned out for you. Everyone wants to have a girlfriend or boyfriend. Everyone wants to kiss. Everyone wants to have sex. I’m not ready for any of it. I’m not scared to admit it, I guess it’s just the fear that people won’t look at me the same. Sometimes I wish it was like older times where people weren’t intimate so young. It’s exhausting putting up an act as if I’m comfortable with everything going on because I’m not. I’m still not ready to grow up but it feels like I’m being pressured by everything and everyone. That’s not even the worst part.-
im startinf to care about what people think of me. Everything little thing. It’s bad. I’ve never ever really cared but it’s like the universe is forcing me to. Every where around me I see eyes I have to please. It’s an issue, and my own brain is manipulating me into thinking I have no choice but to live as people want me to. It’s like having a noose around my neck and every where I go, it just gets tighter and tighter. I’m working on it though.