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I’m not ready

It’s scary being a teenager. I never thought it would be like this. I mean I never thought of it being a perfect time in my life, but my years have just started (freshman) and im already having trouble with just living. I’ve had trouble with this before, but it just seems like everything is planned out for you. Everyone wants to have a girlfriend or boyfriend. Everyone wants to kiss. Everyone wants to have sex. I’m not ready for any of it. I’m not scared to admit it, I guess it’s just the fear that people won’t look at me the same. Sometimes I wish it was like older times where people weren’t intimate so young. It’s exhausting putting up an act as if I’m comfortable with everything going on because I’m not. I’m still not ready to grow up but it feels like I’m being pressured by everything and everyone. That’s not even the worst part.-


im startinf to care about what people think of me. Everything little thing. It’s bad. I’ve never ever really cared but it’s like the universe is forcing me to. Every where around me I see eyes I have to please. It’s an issue, and my own brain is manipulating me into thinking I have no choice but to live as people want me to. It’s like having a noose around my neck and every where I go, it just gets tighter and tighter. I’m working on it though.





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Re: I’m not ready

Honestly I know this is easier said than done but when you stop caring what other people think of you, that is when you will find true happiness. Surround yourself with people who see you for you without judgment. When you find these people try and focus on them and not the one's who judge you because they do not matter. In a more positive thought process, those people who look down on you will only make you aprepeciate the true love you recieve from those who care about you. No one is perfect and that is fine. It is very grown of you to be thinking and trying to stick to your morals.

Never give in to the requests of others which you don’t want to act in. The moment you get out of high school, or even up to your junior year, kids won’t be quite as focused on sex and looks- suddenly everyone’s worried about jobs and money.

I know it’s kind of a bull crap answer- but ignore what everyone else thinks- you shouldn’t aim to please people who don’t even deserve your presence. And if they judge you for being yourself or not wanting to do what they want to do, then they aren’t your friends. Know that your real friends don’t care what you look like or what you act like- they will love you unconditionally.

As for being thrown into life- it actually comes on much slower than you’d think. High school flies by in a flash, but you can stay home in college too! They always show in movies that the moment you hit 18 you’re out and getting jobs and cars and homes, but that’s not true. You stay in your house until you have the support you need to fly. My sisters are both in college and living at home, and now that one has a stable job and is on her second degree, she is moving out with her best friend, which brings me to my second point-

You’re not in this alone! There are so many people in this world who care for you and who will help you up when you fall. Your friends will go through this with you, and your family too, they’ll always be around while you’re trying to get on your feet, so never be afraid to ask them for help. You’re not alone.


Sincerely,


BHSenior


P.S. Do NOT take AP classes, they waste the short time in high school that you have and make it miserable, but DO join clubs and foundations!