2 months ago
Time Spent- 16m
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I’m not sure if this

Is it odd that I’m scared of being normal in the future? Having a beautiful suburban house cute crazy kids and a husband that works all the time scares me. I’m lonely now and I don’t wanna feel how I feel now I’m the future I don’t want it to be normal but I’ve already made the commitments for my boyfriend who isn’t open minded like I am. I just don’t wanna grow up to be the woman you see in ads who’s teeth are white and her hair is shiny I don’t want that it’s like I don’t wanna settle for just that I think I wanna do coke in a foreign country or I wanna dress like a model and walk around like I don’t need anyone I don’t wanna be normal how do I explain that or even understand it I’m sorry I just wanted this to be out there somewhere maybe someone is listening.