So I've always been a fat teenage girl and to be honest I don't really care about that. Before, when they always notice my size, it's not really bothering me because, I love eating, period. But this past few months a lot of my relatives noticed that my tummy is not gaining fat normally, because it protruding and looks bloated and they now always tend to say that I look pregnant, that not much of a bother too, and sometimes I'm riding with it by saying that I'm on my 4th month of pregnancy and something like that, but when you hear it frequently by the people around you, it's starting to get offending. My mom, now decided that we should go see a doctor...and I'm really scared of what's about to come. I mean, I'm not feeling any pain or anything but the fact that it became a bother to them makes me bother about it more, plus I did the forbidden thing, I googled about it, and that doesn't help one bit.
I just tell the context but what I really wanna know, is that, should I look on the brighter side and got disappointed of what's about to come, or just stick to the negative side because in that way, maybe I'll be disappointed but at least I expected it, so the disappointment and sadness won't be that hard to take. I'm so nervous and this won't go away until the check up is over. Prayer is the only thing that can console my fear right now.