I have been in two friends groups, and each time I always end up losing my friends. For a long time, I kept asking myself if it was my fault I never had anyone to rely on. In both cases, there was always one person who basically controlled everyone else. And each time I would try to stand up to that person and tell them they weren’t being fair. But it ended up in me being a outcast for the rest of the year. I knew two of my friends in the second friend group still wanted to be my friends, but the only time they talked to me was when “that friend” wasn’t there, and it hurt me because I felt like I don’t have any real friends at all. They wouldn’t stand up for me and would end up abandoning me in the end. Going to school was miserable for me every single time I see them together. It’s just too much for me.