I'm so tired of being like this. I don't wanna be so miserable and suck at life so bad. I never imagined it would be like this. I had so many dreams but now I can only see everything getting crushed right in front of my eyes. No matter how much I try, it just doesn't get better. Everyday is the same, same toxic family parading what's left of my life, same bitterness and anger, same hatred and self destruction and same crushing loneliness every second of my life. The absolute feeling of worthlessness and knowing that I can drop dead today and no one would give a damn. I wish I was courageous enough to end it all but I'm a coward. I never wanted this burden of what is called life.