I love him so much but he's a full time taker and gives nothing in return. I am tired of giving my all to him. I feel so exhausted, used and lonely. My life is miserable and loveless. I wish he would come to his senses and notice he is losing me, but deep down I know he wouldn't care. I'm disposable to him, and I feel like I would be seen that way by most men as I am now 30. I will never find love after him, and what we had was probably never even real to begin with, if he's acting that way. I don't want to rot on my own. I crave love and intimacy.