I’m going to leave soon. I have 25 days left, soon to be 24 and nothing or no one has changed my mind. Things just slowly seem to get worse. All that ever happens in my life is that people who I love disappoint me. No one will ever choose me and that’s okay. If you need me, wanna see me. Better hurry coz I’m leaving soon. Sorry. Time is running out and you’d rather spend my final moments elsewhere but that’s okay. I understand. I’m leaving soon. I wish I was worth your sundays or your Monday’s, Tuesdays Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays or Saturdays but it isnt your fault it’s his. I wanted to see change but change doesn’t happen over night and that’s okay. I love you still if not more and I know I will never have you. Not now. I’m listening to billie- Xanny and it reminds me of us walking to yours in the dark (high) with no problems. Well non worth mentioning. I wish I was there with you so we weren’t in this mess. I wish we could go back. But we can’t. We were so happy until you met him and now your trapped under a controllers spell and there’s nothing I can do. I remember this one day you met me after work before I got fired and we smoked more than I could handle. I was so stoned I went green and threw up that entire chicken salad your dad made me. I think that was one of the last times I was genuinely happy. It was horrible. But you were there. And that’s more than I have now. I’m sober and it all hurts. I hate this life and I don’t want to live it.&nbsp;I’m sorry. Hannah MLW

I’m going to leave soon. I have 25 days left, soon to be 24 and nothing or no one has changed my mind. Things just slowly seem to get worse. All that ever happens in my life is that people who I love disappoint me. No one will ever choose me and that’s okay. If you need me, wanna see me. Better hurry coz I’m leaving soon. Sorry. Time is running out and you’d rather spend my final moments elsewhere but that’s okay. I understand. I’m leaving soon. I wish I was worth your sundays or your Monday’s, Tuesdays Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays or Saturdays but it isnt your fault it’s his. I wanted to see change but change doesn’t happen over night and that’s okay. I love you still if not more and I know I will never have you. Not now. I’m listening to billie- Xanny and it reminds me of us walking to yours in the dark (high) with no problems. Well non worth mentioning. I wish I was there with you so we weren’t in this mess. I wish we could go back. But we can’t. We were so happy until you met him and now your trapped under a controllers spell and there’s nothing I can do. I remember this one day you met me after work before I got fired and we smoked more than I could handle. I was so stoned I went green and threw up that entire chicken salad your dad made me. I think that was one of the last times I was genuinely happy. It was horrible. But you were there. And that’s more than I have now. I’m sober and it all hurts. I hate this life and I don’t want to live it. I’m sorry. Hannah MLW

Dude. You gotta learn to love yourself. My wife of 35 yrs dumped me because her mom told her too. She got the house I bought. Got the kids I was raising. I got a cot in a storage room in a mountain. I have a horrible disease. Took everything from me. But I’m not taking myself out. Your pretty young. The worlds full of people. Someone out there will eventually want you. I’ve already had a chance or two. I’m still trying to win my wife back. But that’s 35 yrs &amp; 3 kids. If she had another dude I’d say forget it &amp; start shagging. This girl moved on. I’m fully aware it hurts. But put a steak thru those feelings of love &amp; lost. Move on brother. Forget women for a little while. Watch some college football. Cuss at LSU. Cheer for Texas. Watch the NFL. Cheer on that dinosaur Brady. Boo the Pats. Watch NASCARs Talledega this weekend. Listen to Gaga. Eat a frozen pizza. Dance. Loosen up. Quit taking yourself so seriously. Your love life is not important enough to end your life over. Get up off your butt. Play Ozzy Ozborns Crazy Train on your phone, do some exercising, &amp; move on. When I was in college I knew a guy like you. Every song made him want to die. Oz has If I Close my Eyes Forever. I said dude. Quit being dramatic. You are not that important. Some chick is not that important. I’m not that important. This world or old age will kill us soon enough. Might as well get on the Crazy Train &amp; ride this thing we call a life to the end. Ain’t nobody getting me off this roller coaster till my ride is up.

Dude. You gotta learn to love yourself.    My wife of 35 yrs dumped me because her mom told her too. She got the house I bought. Got the kids I was raising. I got a cot in a storage room in a mountain.    I have a horrible disease. Took everything from me. But I’m not taking myself out.    Your pretty young. The worlds full of people. Someone out there will eventually want you. I’ve already had a chance or two. I’m still trying to win my wife back. But that’s 35 yrs & 3 kids. If she had another dude I’d say forget it & start shagging.    This girl moved on. I’m fully aware it hurts. But put a steak thru those feelings of love & lost. Move on brother. Forget women for a little while. Watch some college football. Cuss at LSU. Cheer for Texas. Watch the NFL. Cheer on that dinosaur Brady. Boo the Pats.    Watch NASCARs Talledega this weekend. Listen to Gaga. Eat a frozen pizza. Dance. Loosen up. Quit taking yourself so seriously.    Your love life is not important enough to end your life over. Get up off your butt. Play Ozzy Ozborns Crazy Train on your phone, do some exercising, & move on.    When I was in college I knew a guy like you. Every song made him want to die. Oz has If I Close my Eyes Forever. I said dude. Quit being dramatic. You are not that important. Some chick is not that important. I’m not that important. This world or old age will kill us soon enough. Might as well get on the Crazy Train & ride this thing we call a life to the end. Ain’t nobody getting me off this roller coaster till my ride is up. 

Re: I’m sorry 🏳️

I’m the person that wrote this. I’m a 17 year old straight girl. I have no health conditions. Im suicidal and I’ve planned to kill myself on the 25th. This isn’t about some girl who I’m in love with. It’s about my best friend who’s being emotionally abused by her boyfriend and all I can do is watch. I also wrote another post a few weeks ago called “my suicide note🏳️“ That can explain this better. The reason I’m here is because no one knows about this plan I’ve made and it’s agonising to know I don’t have long left here and my best friend who I love is easily choosing her boyfriend over me. It makes me sad because I want to see her and he won’t let me. Or she doesn’t want to see me. It makes me want to end my life more but I want to fix her life first and I can’t. There has been many other things happening in my life as to why I want to kill myself. I’ve lost my job, my family hate me and see me as a disappointment, I was hit with a car and left with ptsd, A guy sent a video of me around my college that I didn’t want anyone to see and people call me a “slag” when I’m still a virgin. Anyone I start to like leaves me and ignores me. And on top of all of this my best friends boyfriend tried to throw himself into traffic the other day in front of me. He knows I have ptsd from a car accident and he purposely did this to manipulate my best friend into not breaking up with him. I had multiple panic attacks and his response to this was that l should be used to it as I “throw myself into cars”. I appreciate what your trying to say but I don’t think you understood my post properly. There is no way out. -Hannah MLW

I’m the person that wrote this. I’m a 17 year old straight girl. I have no health conditions. Im suicidal and I’ve planned to kill myself on the 25th. This isn’t about some girl who I’m in love with. It’s about my best friend who’s being emotionally abused by her boyfriend and all I can do is watch. I also wrote another post a few weeks ago called “my suicide note🏳️“ That can explain this better. The reason I’m here is because no one knows about this plan I’ve made and it’s agonising to know I don’t have long left here and my best friend who I love is easily choosing her boyfriend over me. It makes me sad because I want to see her and he won’t let me. Or she doesn’t want to see me. It makes me want to end my life more but I want to fix her life first and I can’t. There has been many other things happening in my life as to why I want to kill myself. I’ve lost my job, my family hate me and see me as a disappointment, I was hit with a car and left with ptsd, A guy sent a video of me around my college that I didn’t want anyone to see and people call me a “slag” when I’m still a virgin. Anyone I start to like leaves me and ignores me. And on top of all of this my best friends boyfriend  tried to throw himself into traffic the other day in front of me. He knows I have ptsd from a car accident and he purposely did this to manipulate my best friend into not breaking up with him. I had multiple panic attacks and his response to this was that l should be used to it as I “throw myself into cars”. I appreciate what your trying to say but I don’t think you understood my post properly. There is no way out. -Hannah MLW 