Im 13 and I feel like I’m too young to be thinking like this but:I just want to die. Nothing big/life changing has ever happened to me but in general I’m pretty shy so I don’t have many friends. Recently my best (and pretty much only) friend has been drifting away from me, leaving me with no one to. My parents think I’m normal and happy but I’m too worried that they’ll panic if I tell them how I actually feel. I don’t like anyone at all. Everyone in my school is rude and completely stuck up. During quarantine I was actually happy and laughing without taking it. But tonight everything has hit me completely different. I’ve been crying for 6 hours now just thinking about how there’s no reason for me to be alive. I don’t enjoy life. All I feel is sadness even when there’s nothing to be sad about. All I do is sit in my room all day without talking to my parents or anyone else. I sometimes use social media to talk to other people about my problems but I feel like no one takes it seriously just because I’m young. I know it seems stupid and u probably thinking I’m faking it, but I’m not. I wish this would go away :/ I’m tired of my emotions being bottled up all the time but like I said I have no one to talk to. I’m so glad this website exists Bc I just needed somewhere to vent. I just don’t see the point in life and I’m just not scared of death. I don’t know how to describe it but I just feel like a machine. I was out here for no reason just to sit here and wait for time to pass. I don’t know what I want my future to be. I’d rather be dead. This sounds weird but I don’t care about anything. I felt like this a lot last year but it went away at the beginning of this one. I wasn’t particularly happy but I found joy again. After quarantine and going back to school was super refreshing and I felt pretty happy, but after a month everything’s gone back to how I felt last year, but worse. I just want to die :( I also get super angry a lot. I built up enough courage to tell my mum that I get angry but she didn’t believe me. I punch things, bite my hand and basically make myself hurt deliberately but I really don’t know why. I doubt it counts as self harm because I do it more when I’m angry. Unfortunately I lose control a lot, I use nail clippers on my palms and stuff and end up having lots of cuts on my hand, I told my friend that drifted this but I don’t know how she’s feeling. I feel like she’s upset to, she said she hated school and I feel like we relate but I never told her about how I feel, and I feel like I should keep it to myself because if she’s telling me that she’s sad, I don’t want to make it about me ( if u know what I mean) Like I said I’m only young so I understand if some of you think I’m exaggerating or just lying about it, but I’m really not. I hope it’s just hormones and I grow out of it. I really do, for my family’s sake. Thank you for reading this.

Im 13 and I feel like I’m too young to be thinking like this but:I just want to die. Nothing big/life changing has ever happened to me but in general I’m pretty shy so I don’t have many friends. Recently my best (and pretty much only) friend has been drifting away from me, leaving me with no one to. My parents think I’m normal and happy but I’m too worried that they’ll panic if I tell them how I actually feel. I don’t like anyone at all. Everyone in my school is rude and completely stuck up. During quarantine I was actually happy and laughing without taking it. But tonight everything has hit me completely different. I’ve been crying for 6 hours now just thinking about how there’s no reason for me to be alive. I don’t enjoy life. All I feel is sadness even when there’s nothing to be sad about. All I do is sit in my room all day without talking to my parents or anyone else. I sometimes use social media to talk to other people about my problems but I feel like no one takes it seriously just because I’m young. I know it seems stupid and u probably thinking I’m faking it, but I’m not. I wish this would go away :/ I’m tired of my emotions being bottled up all the time but like I said I have no one to talk to. I’m so glad this website exists Bc I just needed somewhere to vent. I just don’t see the point in life and I’m just not scared of death. I don’t know how to describe it but I just feel like a machine. I was out here for no reason just to sit here and wait for time to pass. I don’t know what I want my future to be. I’d rather be dead. This sounds weird but I don’t care about anything. I felt like this a lot last year but it went away at the beginning of this one. I wasn’t particularly happy but I found joy again. After quarantine and going back to school was super refreshing and I felt pretty happy, but after a month everything’s gone back to how I felt last year, but worse. I just want to die :( I also get super angry a lot. I built up enough courage to tell my mum that I get angry but she didn’t believe me. I punch things, bite my hand and basically make myself hurt deliberately but I really don’t know why. I doubt it counts as self harm because I do it more when I’m angry. Unfortunately I lose control a lot, I use nail clippers on my palms and stuff and end up having lots of cuts on my hand, I told my friend that drifted this but I don’t know how she’s feeling. I feel like she’s upset to, she said she hated school and I feel like we relate but I never told her about how I feel, and I feel like I should keep it to myself  because if  she’s telling me that she’s sad, I don’t want to make it about me ( if u know what I mean)Like I said I’m only young so I understand if some of you think I’m exaggerating or just lying about it, but I’m really not. I hope it’s just hormones and I grow out of it. I really do, for my family’s sake. Thank you for reading this.