I’m so tired of myself. I was depressed a while ago- for a long time. I finally thought I beat it, but now I’m in this weird cycle of mood swings. I’d rather be sad and irritable all the time than in this. It’s horrible. Some days I hate myself so much, other days I love myself. Sometimes I’m fine, then I’m crying. I feel like I can never escape some kind of torture. I don’t have any dreams, nothing to look forward too. I can’t even figure out what I like doing, let alone think of what I want to be in the future.