I'm pretty sure we can all agree that 2020 sucks... I wasn't looking forward to lockdown since being with my family isn't all that great. I feel like suffocating. They have never been there for me emotionally. I can't even share my problems with my friends because of my trust issues. Dude. I feel like blowing up. Instead of being the source of my confidence, they make me hate myself even more. I feel like I'm drowning. I've thought of ending it all various times. I feel so unwanted, useless, worthless. I hide the pain. It's been easier to hide my emotions from my friends since we just see each other online. I know my problems aren't anything compared to others'. I'm sorry.