okay, im tired of you thinking im fine when im not. im tired of you thinking i can handle myself when i can't. im tired of you thinking you're helping when you're really just making it worse. im tired of you rushing me into being "fine". and i find it so fucking annoying when you know im not okay yet you won't check on me. you wont ask if im fine. no. why? because you dont care and we know that. we know that im just a mere grain of sand in a beach and it wont matter if im gone or not. we know that it doesnt matter if im okay or not because what matters is you. you, and only you. you want the comfort, you want the attention. this whole story is you, you, you. when i was taking a break from social media, you said that you missed me. you said that you missed me yet you never checked up on me. you never reached out to me. you're rushing me into healing and being "okay", and i dont like it. i need time for myself, and i want you to understand that. i need time to heal and to gain that self-confidence i once had. i need time to stop thinking so negatively in life. i need time to find the person i once was, but its hard to do that when you're rushing me into it. i cant heal and be okay in a blink of an eye. i cant see the world in a positive view in a snap of a finger. im not okay and we both know that, so stop it.