i think i’m tired, not like sleep tired. more of like in general, i’m tired of trying and i’m tired of trying to find reassurance of others. I know i can be troublesome and annoying and sometimes rude and really passive aggressive, and i apologize for everything if i could. but ik that it wont fix anything so i think i’ve given up trying to do these things, i’d like to keep trying to keep stable relationships with my friends and family. But it’s hard really fucking hard, not to mention that i’ve completely lost myself and i’m always acting as a certain way with every single person. besides one i think, i think it’s me but idk anymore. But that’s my rant for today, maybe i’ll be back here to rant about a lot more.