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I'm Tired

Help me.

I'm too afraid to live,

too afraid to recognize myself more,

too afraid for asking help.


I think people won't forgive me

I asked for forgiveness to God, but always do the same mistake, again and again...

I hope God never tired of me

Because I'm tired of myself already.


They said " Suicide is not worth it, because you will hurt a lot of people".

But they HURT me.

I'M BROKEN BECAUSE OF THEM, I'M MISERABLE BECAUSE OF THEM, CAN THEY SEE IT? CAN THEY UNDERSTAND ME?


They won't.

I know that they will never see it or understand,

Because I don't want them to see me as a WEAK creature.

I hid it.

I hid my tears

I hid my scars

I hid my thoughts

I hid my feelings

I hid it all.


I'm already weak myself,

I don't need them to know more about me,

to know that I'm the weakest person that they will ever meet.


I won't forgive myself,

I don't deserve it.

I don't want to give myself some sympathy, even a little.

Still, i don't deserve it.


I deserve to be suffer.

And that's what I am doing right know, KEEP LIVING.

The longer I live, the suffer I become.

Just like what I deserved.