im tired. im just so tired of everything right now. i just want to disappear, from everything and everyone. i just want to stop. to stop fighting, stop trying. its getting to exhausting to bear it all alone. all i want right now is a warm hugs and gentle pats on the back. all i want it just for some reassurance that everything's going to be okay, that in the end, i'll be okay and i'll be able to actually smile and actually get to be happy.