I'm so tired of understanding, yet, I keep doing it. It doesn't stop, it just keeps happening. Am I abusing myself? I don't even know what to think right now. I feel like I'm being crushed. There is this something that I want to let out but I can't because I don't know what it is! I want to end this suffering, but I'm afraid to end it all. I feel so weak, so little everyday. I'm tired.