I'm not gonna bullshit, nor sugarcoat. I need to move in with my father.And not for the simple fact that my mother gets on my nerves, but it's the fact that she continuously makes me feel like shit and what I do is never going to be enough for her.And if the decision is made, I'm not crying for shit. ESPECIALLY not in front of her.And before you other "certified parents" start lecturing me on how im an ungrateful little shit and selfish, shove it up your ass. "Selfish" would be blowing my brains out the moment I get the chance."Selfish" would be flat out ending my life.And I already know I'm ungrateful. Don't you think my mom has made sure I knew that over and over again even though I say thank you to her and my step-father more than ANYONE in this goddamn house?Istg it's only ME who she finds the little stuff to shout at. My brother's are in their room right now as I'm typing, enjoying their morning.God damnit, why can't I?Even when I tried to call my dad to figure out ways on how to calm down, she came in and INTERRUPTED us. And when I asked her why I couldn't she used that golden parent phrase. "Because we pay the phone bill and you don't pay not one bill in this house." Which I' am well aware of. But, you can't expect me to respect you and you don't give me no type of damn respect that I can learn off of.I need to fucking leave. My patience is gone. I have none with my mom anymore. She's going to learn to appreciate me if she so called "loves" me so much.And if that includes moving in with the one person she told me not to, than I will.And even if she doesn't learn, if I was that much of a god damn nuisance and such a damn disturbance in her life she could have fucking ABORTED me.And I refuse to take that shit back.Matter of fact, I mean it with all the damn estrogen in my fucking body.