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I'm too stupid to make my family proud

I'm in my early 40's and I don't think I have ever done anything to make my family truly proud of me. I'm a good person, but I'm really stupid. I screw up all the time not meaning to. Everytime I visit my Dad I'm reminded of how much of a loser I am. He doesn't say those exact words but other things he says hints around to it. Then of course my Stepmom has to brag about all the wonderful things her daughters or her friends kids have done. They don't mention me to their friends that anything about being proud of me. I truly believe that my family is ashamed of me. I guess they never take the time to notice my hard work and good things I do. It hurts my feelings because one of my Aunt has pictures in her house of the rest of the family except me. It's almost like she doesn't want her friends to know that I'm her niece. She's not the only family member that's embarrassed of me. Not just family, but I've also had so called friends that were embarrassed of me. The only reason they came around at all is because they wanted something. They didn't want me around because they were all so much prettier than I am and I guess they didn't want all the cute guys they always got as boyfriends to question why were they friends with such an ugly girl. I've tried my whole life to make people feel proud of me. But nothing ever works. I feel like if I had a lot of money, was very beautiful and more successful they would be wanting to brag about me but sadly that's not the case. I'm just going to continue being a good person. I really do hate the feeling of embarrassing my family and friends though. If I was smart they would be proud. Unfortunately I will admit it myself that I'm nothing but a stupid person who has never done anything right, no matter how much I try. I'm invisible to my family. I think they love me but they want to love me in secret or something. I've secretly cried when I think about it.