I don't know what to say...as soon as it comes to expressing my feelings i suddenly become blank whereas all the other times i am overwhelmed by this feeling that makes me feel I'm drowning in some sort of an ocean with nothing in sight to save me. I know everyone says you have to save yourself but what if you don't have the strength anymore. I just don't know what to do how to do. I am too scared to write about what I'm going through so I will just write about how I am feeling. The feeling is not good. Not good at all. I feel like I am trapped . I feel like I am a nobody. I feel like I'm useless, that I'm of no use, that I can't do anything. I have noone to talk to. No friends. Few people whom I considered friends don't have the time to have a chat or ask how I am feeling. I am noone's priority. I don't have anyone "close" with whom I can share what I am going through. I don't know how much longer I'll be able to hold up. I don't know what's gonna happen but I want to be hopeful and think everything is going to be just fine.