So yesterday I got diagnosed with depression and anxiety, my mom just found out yesterday as that’s the day I told my family doctor. My doctor said that I should see a psychologist, but I would rather see a psychiatrist. I told my mom that and she said “I don’t know if I want you to be on pills”.... I have also told her about some other things I’d like to do for treatment. I can’t even choose the way I’d like to make myself happy again. My mom wants to control me. I can’t. I can’t do this. She also thinks she knows the reason I have depression. She’s like “I think a big part of it is the way the world is right now due to covid”. she thinks she knows why I’m depressed oh my god! This is exactly why I didn’t tell her before. I don’t get to choose how to be happy again, I don’t even get to choose why my mind is the way it apparently is. my mom doesn’t control my emotions. She can’t. She won’t. I won’t let her.ahhhhh I think I’m going insane im going insane!!!