People keep saying that I am beautiful whatever others thinks of me but I can't deny the fact to myself that physically, I am not looking good. I am a short chubby girl with an overbite front teeth. I am so insecure about myself, my self confidence is very low. I am so shy when interacting with other people, I always hide myself in the corner not to be noticed by anyone. I cannot do anything about my appearance because I have no money to do so. I started to think that I will be forever looking like this and it hurts me so much. I want to interact with people confidently, but every time I tried to be confident, people in my environment will begin to stare like I'm the ugliest girl I'm the world. One day I met a guy online through Facebook. We chatted for so long and I fell in love with him, but he never saw me in person. He said that he's falling for me too and I began to feel the excitement in my heart and at the same time a feeling of fear. What if he see me in person? Will he like me? Or will he be discourage because of my appearance. I am really falling for him and after a long debate with myself I told him my feelings and we became a couple online. The day comes and we decided to meet up in person. I was so nervous, I'm afraid he'll run away after seeing me. I finally got to see him and he is looking so good. I'm feeling so small beside him like insecurities attacked me again. Good thing he is so kind and didn't comment about my looks. We dated for a year in a long distance relationship coz he lives in another town and I lives in the opposite side. I thought I was the luckiest girl in the world when he said that he loves me. When our 1st year anniversary came, I went to his town by plane just to celebrate with him. He offered to stay in his house with his parents and I agreed coz I finally got to meet his parents. I stayed there for 6 days and on the last day he told me that he wants to break up with me. I asked him why and he said that his parents doesn't like me coz I am not presentable enough, maybe because of the way I looked. The most painful thing I heard from him was when he said that he fell out of love from me, he doesn't love me anymore. It was so painful that I couldn't breathe properly, my heart is so heavy, I'm feeling like I'm dying. I begged him not to break up with me with my knees on the ground but he said that whatever I do his decision is final he doesn't love me anymore. I went back at home with a broken heart. I wonder if he really loved me in the first place. Maybe he just pity me all the time that's why he stayed for a year with me. Again my self confidence is going down. Will I ever be happy again with this look? And now it's almost a year after we broke up. I can say that my love for him already faded but the scar is still there. This time, it's like history is repeating itself coz there's this someone again who's been chatting with me online. He said he fell for me already, and I told him that I'm not ready to get into relationship again. I would be honest, I think I like him but I'm afraid that he will hurt me too in the future, just like my ex did to me. I really want to fall in love again, but a part of me is saying no because of my self insecurities. I am so sad and crying right now while typing this. Will I ever be happy again?