is anyone fine these days? in the society we live in? is anyone truly genuinely happy anymore? i don't know. i feel like everyone around me is depressed so when they come to me i want to tell them that i too am planning to kill myself but that would be too much for them probably so i just say i'm there for them and they say "how the hell are you so happy all the time? what's it like to not have anxiety?" and i do fucking deal with that shit. i cut today after a couple weeks clean. i had a panic attack in a fucking starbucks bathroom because i felt like people were watching me. i can't tell anyone because they'll probably say "oh i know how you feel everyone feels that way" and even though it's not what i want to hear i'm starting to believe it because everyone's so fucking sad these days.