My mom always thinks i’m joking when i say i want to kill myselfI guess it does sound like a jokeMaybe because it seems so overdramatic or unrealAnd maybe the tone of my voice must have indicated that i was jokingOr maybe because I say it often enough that it loses its zingFor the most part of it, i do say it like a jokeBut if you really look at it, If i was given a choiceI would do itI know it’s unconventional Selfish or whatever But I didn’t ask for any of thisI just want it to be over