Sooooo , I created a YouTube channel I was anxious as well as excited ,buh that didn't last long , I got a thousand and one back lashes from everyone, my sister especially but after critizing she gave me a ton of her support, like the clothes I wore were horrible , I lacked confidence , the video was crap and I pretty much sucked at editing , we decided to work on them but somewhere deep down her words remained and gave in to insecurities , her friends didn't help matter , we made a couple of videos that were totally her ideas ,that I could never share with my friends cos of how insecureI felt . over time my subscribers didn't grow which made me feel worse and less sooo end of story I deleted the videos all of it and now everyone calling names saying I'm weak and I've got low self-esteem , I don't know if I'm right or wrong but honestly I don't want those videos back and I don't want my sisters to stay mad at me buh yet again I'll probably be using my phone to record again , with zero editing skill , or maybe I'm not just good at anything

Sooooo , I created a YouTube channel I was anxious as well as excited ,buh that didn't last long , I got a thousand and one back lashes from everyone, my sister especially but after critizing she gave me a ton of her support, like the clothes I wore were horrible , I lacked confidence , the video was crap and I pretty much sucked at editing , we decided to work on them but somewhere deep down her words remained and gave in to insecurities , her friends didn't help matter , we made a couple of videos that were totally her ideas ,that I could never share with my friends cos of how insecureI felt . over time my subscribers didn't grow which made me feel worse and less sooo end of story I deleted the videos all of it and now everyone calling names saying I'm weak and I've got low self-esteem , I don't know if I'm right or wrong but honestly I don't want those videos back and I don't want my sisters to stay mad at me buh yet again I'll probably be using my phone to record again , with zero editing skill , or maybe I'm not just good at anything

You seem to be your insecurities. Why do you insist on defining yourself by what others think of you? Why do you care how many subscribers you got? You feel that you have something to say then say it, make the videos for yourself. Why did you involve others in your project? What does your sister have to do with anything? Youtube is an over saturated popularity contest that you have as much chance at winning as the lottery. Now, take a step back. Think this through honestly - do you really have something to say OR do you just want attention. If it's attention you seek understand that Youtube is an over saturated popularity contest that you have as much chance at winning as the lottery. If you really have something pertinent to say that you feel isn't heard then say it, the way you want it said. Not saying you shouldn't listen to feedback but you must first have your own vision made reality before accepting criticism from the cheap seats.

You seem to be your insecurities. Why do you insist on defining yourself by what others think of you? Why do you care how many subscribers you got? You feel that you have something to say then say it, make the videos for yourself. Why did you involve others in your project? What does your sister have to do with anything? Youtube is an over saturated popularity contest that you have as much chance at winning as the lottery.   Now, take a step back. Think this through honestly - do you really have something to say OR do you just want attention. If it's attention you seek understand that Youtube is an over saturated popularity contest that you have as much chance at winning as the lottery. If you really have something pertinent to say that you feel isn't heard then say it, the way you want it said. Not saying you shouldn't listen to feedback but you must first have your own vision made reality before accepting criticism from the cheap seats.  

Re: Is it me or my insecurities speaking

It's certainly not for popularity , I just make out something of my life and I always wanted to be a YouTuber guess I'm pretty much too messed up, sooooooo if you were me would you retrieve the videos or let it go , I don't want to hurt my sister she's put in way too much,as much as I want to grow ,I also want her to be happy , you know sometimes I wish I could care less about certain things , I just want to start again on a clean slate , why can't everyone stop seeing it as cowardice

It's certainly not for popularity , I just make out something of my life and I always wanted to be a YouTuber guess I'm pretty much too messed up, sooooooo if you were me would you retrieve the videos or let it go , I don't want to hurt my sister she's put in way too much,as much as I want to grow ,I also want her to be happy , you know sometimes I wish I could care less about certain things , I just want to start again on a clean slate , why can't everyone stop seeing it as cowardice

You have a right not to have crap videos of you posted on youtube regardless of your sisters feelings. Apologize, make it up to her some other way down the line but if you don't want them then let them be gone, no one says you have to suffer. However, you should learn from this - any video that is a collaboration means that other person also has certain rights and privileges so you need to take into account their expectations.

You have a right not to have crap videos of you posted on youtube regardless of your sisters feelings. Apologize, make it up to her some other way down the line but if you don't want them then let them be gone, no one says you have to suffer. However, you should learn from this - any video that is a collaboration means that other person also has certain rights and privileges so you need to take into account their expectations.

I know I messed , have you got any tips on how to freaking get freaking vacation away from myself I'll need that, but hey thanks I don't know who you're or where form or what you look like buh at least know one thing and that is ...... Nothing , hahaha just kidding thanks , you've saved me from half of the hurt I should feeling right now , thanks geee

I know I messed , have you got any tips on how to freaking get freaking vacation away from myself I'll need that, but hey thanks I don't know who you're or where form or what you look like buh at least know one thing and that is ...... Nothing , hahaha just kidding thanks , you've saved me from half of the hurt I should feeling right now , thanks geee