Hi, I don't really know who to approach with this so I'm posting on here.I can recall some weird sexual fantasies I had when I was really young. I think I started having them around 6/7. They'd involve old men abducting and raping me and doing all sorts of stuff. I also remember touching myself with the beak of a metal decorative bird and liking the mixture of pain and pleasure but how could a child have such thoughts?? I don't think this is normal but I had a great childhood, nothing that could have caused this. I know seeing other children naked or even touching each other is part of a child's sexual discovery and rather normal behavior and I know rape fantasies are fairly common too among adults but I've never read or heard anything about healthy children that were never abused having such twisted fantasies. Has anyone experienced such things? Is this possibly normal? I can't really go up to my friends and ask them about this so I'd love to hear something from you guys.

Hi, I don't really know who to approach with this so I'm posting on here.I can recall some weird sexual fantasies I had when I was really young. I think I started having them around 6/7. They'd involve old men abducting and raping me and doing all sorts of stuff. I also remember touching myself with the beak of a metal decorative bird and liking the mixture of pain and pleasure but how could a child have such thoughts?? I don't think this is normal but I had a great childhood, nothing that could have caused this. I know seeing other children naked or even touching each other is part of a child's sexual discovery and rather normal behavior and I know rape fantasies are fairly common too among adults but I've never read or heard anything about healthy children that were never abused having such twisted fantasies. Has anyone experienced such things? Is this possibly normal? I can't really go up to my friends and ask them about this so I'd love to hear something from you guys.

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There are professional expert in such cases. You can consult them about this. I do not know what are they actually called. People with hidden fears, strange dream sequences, anxiety usually consult them................................................................................................

Re: Is this normal behavior for a child?

I’m a genius. I seem to understand so much. Perhaps I can help. Maybe not. Let’s try. Your brain is a biological computer. Who knows how these thoughts got in your head. But accept they are there. We all have weird thoughts. Look at the animal kingdom. They don’t know they are animals. But the advanced ones have thoughts IMO. They act on those thoughts because they are animals. We have a soul. We choose to act on thoughts or not. As a child I remember being tied up &amp; raped from age 4. I never did it to others. I was beat &amp; tortured horribly. I never did it to others. But I had issues. A disease forced me to be Mr mom. I couldn’t touch my kids skin. I found endless ways to cleans &amp; change them without my skin touching there’s. Oh I learned to hold &amp; hug them. But I couldn’t even kiss their cheek or touch their butt if I changed a diaper. I had no weird desires. Instead I felt it was very wrong. Here’s my weird fettish. I’m only attracted to tall beautiful big chested women. I hope to win back my ex of 35 yrs. she’s very thin now. So I look at artistic pics of thin nude adult women. I’m trying to reprogram my mind into seeing beauty in a thin woman. It’s worked. I now see her new body as just as beautiful as when she looked like Scarlet Johansson. My other fettish I will not act on. In my mind I desire blow jobs rather than sex. I dream of it. Obvi that’s because I was getting them from age 4-16. But whenever I think of one I also start shaking &amp; crying. I have not allowed one since age 16. I never will. I choose what thoughts I act upon. I’m a protector. I want to save the world. I used to do a lot. I’ve actually saved lives. I’ve fought to protect a gay person. But I’m old now so I rarely help anyone anymore unless you count this. I have the risk taker gene. I used to do some dangerous stuff. But I realized eventually I’d try a motorcycle jump too far; climb too high; swim by the wrong shark. I had to stop. I still get constant urges. Drive 120 mph. Climb that. Go parachuting. But I just laugh at the thoughts. Say that’s stupid in my mind. And move on. Granted. I’ve never had your thoughts. But I have my own weird ones. We all do. We just don’t tell each other. The beauty of this site is that we can. So long as you don’t act on them it’s fine. Reprogram your mind. Starting at 12 I had sex with grown women. Over 200 before marriage. Once married my mind still tried to imagine women naked. I’m super hot. Women still ask me out endlessly. But when I think of one naked I change it. I make my mind think of a puppy. Then a kitten. Then a butterfly. Then a football game. Then how to fix a washing machine. Nothing sexy about that. I’ve done it so long that it just does it automatically for me. I learned that in martial arts. You visualize what you will do if something happens so many times that when it does you do it. Do that with these thoughts. If you dream them &amp; wake up reprogram them for a few minutes as soon as you wake. Same thing if you are awake. Eventually your brain will auto do it for you. Hey; if a cat can learn to meow for a treat; you can control your weird thoughts. God Bless

I’m a genius. I seem to understand so much. Perhaps I can help. Maybe not. Let’s try.  Your brain is a biological computer. Who knows how these thoughts got in your head. But accept they are there. We all have weird thoughts.  Look at the animal kingdom. They don’t know they are animals. But the advanced ones have thoughts IMO. They act on those thoughts because they are animals.  We have a soul. We choose to act on thoughts or not.  As a child I remember being tied up & raped from age 4. I never did it to others. I was beat & tortured horribly. I never did it to others.  But I had issues. A disease forced me to be Mr mom. I couldn’t touch my kids skin. I found endless ways to cleans & change them without my skin touching there’s. Oh I learned to hold & hug them. But I couldn’t even kiss their cheek or touch their butt if I changed a diaper. I had no weird desires. Instead I felt it was very wrong.  Here’s my weird fettish. I’m only attracted to tall beautiful big chested women. I hope to win back my ex of 35 yrs. she’s very thin now. So I look at artistic pics of thin nude adult women. I’m trying to reprogram my mind into seeing beauty in a thin woman. It’s worked. I now see her new body as just as beautiful as when she looked like Scarlet Johansson.  My other fettish I will not act on. In my mind I desire blow jobs rather than sex. I dream of it. Obvi that’s because I was getting them from age 4-16. But whenever I think of one I also start shaking & crying. I have not allowed one since age 16. I never will. I choose what thoughts I act upon.  I’m a protector. I want to save the world. I used to do a lot. I’ve actually saved lives. I’ve fought to protect a gay person. But I’m old now so I rarely help anyone anymore unless you count this.  I have the risk taker gene. I used to do some dangerous stuff. But I realized eventually I’d try a motorcycle jump too far; climb too high; swim by the wrong shark. I had to stop. I still get constant urges. Drive 120 mph. Climb that. Go parachuting. But I just laugh at the thoughts. Say that’s stupid in my mind. And move on.  Granted. I’ve never had your thoughts. But I have my own weird ones. We all do. We just don’t tell each other. The beauty of this site is that we can.  So long as you don’t act on them it’s fine. Reprogram your mind.  Starting at 12 I had sex with grown women. Over 200 before marriage. Once married my mind still tried to imagine women naked. I’m super hot. Women still ask me out endlessly. But when I think of one naked I change it. I make my mind think of a puppy. Then a kitten. Then a butterfly. Then a football game. Then how to fix a washing machine. Nothing sexy about that. I’ve done it so long that it just does it automatically for me.  I learned that in martial arts. You visualize what you will do if something happens so many times that when it does you do it.  Do that with these thoughts. If you dream them & wake up reprogram them for a few minutes as soon as you wake. Same thing if you are awake. Eventually your brain will auto do it for you. Hey; if a cat can learn to meow for a treat; you can control your weird thoughts.  God Bless