It just hurts so much. Why didn't I get my dream university? To others, it may seem like a shallow problem but to me, it's everything. Despite studying hard and praying hard for it, it's still not enough. Passing my dream course in my dream university. Is that too much too ask? Or maybe the problem is me, because I'm not smart enough :< I don't know. I don't feel like fighting anymore. I just want to understand why did God let this happen. I know that it's part of His plans for me, it just hurts so so much.