I'm 19 nd a boy or should I say a feminine boy, bcz I'm being recognized by this thing mostly.
When I said I'm 19 u must be portraying an image of a young energetic, active cool and normal guy. But I'm not at all like that. And that's the main fucking problem.
The last memory I have of my childhood is something of being alone bcz my behavior was not like other boys and I was feminine. How ever I didn't took this so serious at that time but as soon as I completed age of 10 o got a number of ppl making fun and abusing me by names bcz I was feminine and physically weak as compared to a boy of my age. This was the thing which made me stop going out.i never talked to anyone stranger bcz they always said ur like a girl u should b a girl and that was so sucking for me.
However I was living with all this shit. And trying to be happy but it got worse when I was not selected not only one tym but so many times as a class monitor as a group leader just bcz I was feminine though I had all the capabilities and qualities .
After that I totally stopped being social and now I'm so alone. I be sick most of the time and feel so low.
I wanna share my feelings with someone but no one even care .
It really suck. 3 months ago o got to know that bcz I was feminine I am suffering from Glossophobia . And now i cant do any thing which i should be doing.
My frnds do not even care about me but i do for them . I feel rejected, used,empty,lost, confused, and alone all the time. I thing that i should end my life but no i wont bcz no one cares but i wannna be the voice of ppl like me for them i want to live. But the fact is i cant be living anyymore with such feelings. I need to pull them out.pls help me out .
And yes take care of ur relatives and frnds for no reason.