I kinda hate myself... Its like i don't want to be happy. I miss herr. All this time n I've still failed to actually talk to her about how i feel. Not knowing makes it harder to move forward. At least knowing i could for sure say she didn't want me (We quit talking because of me)Instead i just say nothing while it slowly eats at me n i just assume things that i dont know. I feel like i see her everywhere , even post on here i wonder if its her. Even tho i know its highly unlikely.... I get a new phone fairly often , so i wrote her phone number on a peice of papper n put it in my wallet n i looked for it today n its gone.. Heart wrenching. I feel like such a awful friend ..She'll never forgive me at this point.No response needed im also just venting on here. Probably too often..Goodnight everyone.